I wish that message never came. I’m all shakened inside.

I wish I didn’t see you there so that my heart didn’t skip a beat.

I wish I hadn’t gone but I felt it was only right to show my appreciation towards them who were the ones who always consoled me back then. That was the best I could do.

I wish no one would be able to recognise me when I don this hair but I was all wrong. They were so welcoming.

I wish I could turn back time so all these won’t have happen.

Somehow or rather, I feel as though you are still watching me.

I’m feeling guilty for feeling this way.

Just stop haunting me in my dreams. You just did it again yesterday. I can’t seem to figure out why it’s still so difficult this time. It all suddenly became so fresh in my mind. Like it just happened yesterday.

Maybe it’s because of the warmth of a family and the bond that I find so rare. Maybe because I wasn’t judged by the broken ties. Maybe because of Baba. Ya. Baba. She’s the reason.

It’s true I have now found the happiness that I’ve been yearning for. I don’t know what else to say.

Like Lila said ‘It’s either the guy or his family.’ Maybe it was your family.

Enough said, I think I should put this to an end. It has actually ended a year ago. I’m not catching up with reality I guess.

Let’s just pretend it never happened. That message never came and I was all well and fine like before. Like after I met my newfound love.

I’m really sorry baby.